I'M OBSESSED WITH A GIRL !! HELP ME !!?

i'm obsessed with this girl and i have never met her before i have been obsessed with her for a year and a half and i'm not the only one that is obsessed with her there is other cyber friend that is obsessed too he sent her gifts and his marriege was destroyed because of her , she encouraged his love and to make you understand my situation , i'm 20 years old unemployed and no study i live in North Africa , i have no religion i hate where i live and i'm not proud of my nationality and i hate everything around me and i want to immigrate from here anyway i'm prevented from travelling now cuz .. well it's a long story and i might go to Russia cuz it's easy to go to , and the girl i'm obsessed with is Russian and i love her so much , i wait everyday for her from the time i wake up till i sleep she is even the reason i wake up everyday and today when i told her that i wait for her everyday she said it's unpleasant for her and that i should be independent and she was cold to me , i love about her that she is so intelligent , a lot more intelligent and cultured than me and she is so beautiful , she has amazing face features , and the way she writes is interesting and lovable we usually talk on microphone everyday but today she said she doesn't want to and it made me feel like a child who is dependent on others and made me feel not like a man , like a loser .. i have been wanting to get rid of this obsession for long time and i couldn't , i talk to her everyday and i wanna control my feelings , my life is miserable and i think of myself as a loser , she doesn't like me back and she said i'm not her type once while i was begging her for something i don't remember , i have been obsessed with other girls i think 2 and this is the hardest one and sometimes it kills me , i even tried to delete her and even blocked but i end up adding her and begging like a dog .. i feel ashamed of myself that i always beg and act dependent on her , i like begging for women i have huge femdom fantasy since i was really young .. i don't know what to do , i never met her and one of the things that upsets me is that she has great life , she has friends and she is richer than me and i'm nobody and when i talk with her on microphone i be doing nothing but talking her and she would be doing a lot , cleaning , dressing , talking on phone , chatting with other friends , watching things , taking online tests , listening to music , making a drink and i'm like an idiot just waiting putting my headsets on my head and waiting for her to be free and talk to me and today she said she doesn't want and when i face her that she is cold she says " i don't owe you anything , okey ?" it hurts me that she would say that .. for a period passed i was so obsessed and waiting for her everyday and she used to treat me like a slave and get angry at me and treat me bad and i used to feel uncomfurtable and hurt , she had some bad moods , i'm obsessed about everything about her , all of her photos , everything she writes on her wall , the way she talks , everything and i wanted to meet her , that is all my side but her side i'm just a friend that talks to online and before while i was so obsessed she got angry at me for some silly reason and i asked her " am i losing you ?" and she said " kinda " just like that , like i'm not a friend to her and to be honest now i feel ashamed of myself , i have big goals in my life and it's all out of the country i live in , she wants to enter two colleges , to have two degrees , a degree as a teacher and a degree in law she wants to be public prosecuter and i don't want to study , she is better than me from everything and it's not healthy for me i keep thinking that she is better than me and it kills me .. when i was in her age i wasn't that smart , i'm not smart person i'm stupid .. i have depression and she is everything in my life , i want to stop it , i don't like it i don't want to see her in real life i want to not be interested in her anymore , i want to be independent , what i do ? help me ..