HELP My hearts been broken what do i do please read all details i know a lil long but please need advice?

Just be a friend like you said you were. Stop over thinking the situation and trying to control where it goes. If you are going to be her friend then do what you would normally do with a friend. Hang out with her and get to know her better on a different level. See what develops from that. You may be able to redeem yourself by making a different impression on her. But, I repeat stop over thinking and definitely don't try and manipulate or control the situation. Always be who you are and allow and encourage the women in your life to always be who they are. You never want to portray an impostor only to have the real you surface weeks or months later and find out the person you love can't love who you really are because they don't really know you and vice versa!