HELP My hearts been broken what do i do please read all details i know a lil long but please need advice?

Okay, so first of all, I'm sorry to tell you this, but I really don't think it was the first impression of you that ended your chances. If a girl really likes a guy, it doesn't matter what her first impression of him was. Of course, it's easier to fall for a guy that isn't a cocky jerk right from the beginning (so next first impression, be yourself always!!!), but really, I think she just didn't feel the same way for you. It's easier for anyone who's doing the "breakup" type stuff to make you feel like it was your fault, that it could have happened but you just did that one thing wrong. The reality is, I don't know if she ever felt that way about you. It takes more than a nice personality to like someone and maybe she liked this other guy for other reasons. Of course, she does like you enough that she knows how you feel about her and doesn't want to hurt you. I'm sure she really does still want to be friends but as for the pushing the kid away or waiting for her, I don't think you should do either. If she felt the same chemistry, she would be with you right now, not with some other guy that made a "better first impression." I think you should try finding another girl that is really into you for you and isn't hiding a relationship from you. My advice is, stay friends with this girl, things could change but don't count on it, but you should branch out and find someone better for you. She didn't treat you well either, she lead you on and maybe she was waiting to see who was the better pick and keeping you in the shadows so you wouldn't know what she was up to. You deserve someone that treats you better than that. And next time remember girls will like you for you, please don't try to be anybody you're not. You're going to find a girl that likes every aspect of you, if you just be yourself!!